I can’t believe it.
I think I might actually be in shock. It’s been one second – a blink of an eye – and my sweet Emma is off to kindergarten.
To be honest, I wasn’t sure how I would feel about this.
I’ve been fine.
We went school shopping – I was fine. We went for supply drop off – I was fine.
We bought a new backpack – I was fine. (Of course Ella got one, too)
I’ve been fine.
After all, I’ve done this before. Twice.
With Alexa and Maria – and look at them now!! All grown up!
That was 15 and 16 years ago.
Yep. 2000 and 2001.
Let that soak in for a second.
It was before the attacks of September 11th.
It was before the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan.
It was before Facebook.
Bill Clinton and then George W. Bush were Presidents.
We got our VHS videos – from Blockbuster.
Amazon was just a Rainforest.
We watched Friends, The West Wing, and The Sopranos!
And – the cost of gas was $1.26.
So my point here – it’s been a while.
It’s a completely different world. And that is NO exaggeration. Everything is different.
But, what remains the same – at least to me – is that being parent is basically everything.
I was working at Channel Two at the time and I was a different kind of mom. I was a single mom. I made mistakes. I wish I could go back and change a view things. But… that’s for a different blog.
Luckily, my big girls turned into amazing human beings. Despite my mistakes, not-so-perfect judgement, and always-on-the-go lifestyle.
Anyway, over the years, I’ve had many friends ship their kids off to school with tears in their eyes. So, I know it’s not easy.
It is a big deal. A gargantuan deal. It’s overwhelming.
There’s some worry involved – have I prepared her for this? Have I done a good enough job over the past five and a half years?
Honestly – she’s ready. She is very excited.
Maybe it’s all about me? My selfish needs. She’s my side-kick. I’m working from home so she’s always by my side.
We love our adventures.
NOW – We won’t be able to just get in the car and go out for chocolate chip pancakes. We can’t get on a plane and go visit my dad in Florida. We can’t do whatever we want anymore.
We always go someplace – do something.
She’s like one of my very best friends. At five.
Yes, I still have Ella Grace at home with me. And it will be nice to spend time with just the baby. By the way – the baby is going to miss Emma SO SO much, too. (and the baby starts pre-school next week – 2 hours twice a week…
I think the thing that’s really hard – is that this is all just proof of how quickly time goes by.
Having your child go off to kindergarten really is both heartbreaking and exciting.
What I do remember from my last time around is that it’s okay to feel emotional. It’s okay to let yourself feel what you feel. Whatever that is.
Besides, I know she’ll be home at 3:41 every afternoon.